Finding Myself - Day 1

Woke up feeling strange. Like as if I'm on air and feeling empty.

Sat up for a few moments not thinking of anything. Then slowly everything starts to sink back in. And with a heavy heart I sink back to bed. Talked to a Shen on MSN as he is very happy with his new job (due to the fact that his new job is just being online the whole day).

And suddenly, an old friend who has disappeared for a very long time called all the way from Australia. The bastards had been avoiding our msges and calls for a year plus and he can just call in and talk as if nothing had ever happen before. And the worst part is that we talked to him like he just called yesterday as well. Guy friends have a really strange relationship. Especially after more than 10 years of friendship.

Had a good talk. And after lunch I did the weirdest thing ever.

I exercised. No. Not those Wing Chun forms or stuffs like that. I did some serious sit-ups and push ups.

Feeling a little better I bathe and spend some time practicing my smiling skills in front of the mirror. Now the real challenge begin.

First way to look happy is to sing in the car even when you're stuck in a jam. So I sang.

Student came to class. I smile.

Friends came to visit. I smile.

Boss talks to me. I smile.

Student's mom greets. I smile.

Feeling like shit. I smile.

Yup. Congratulation Alwyn. Well done. Now let's continue this good job for the rest of your life.

So I went home, and then some friends (Kenny and Shen) picked me up from my house for dinner. First we went to Time Square and don't see anything that is worth eating.

Then we went to KFC. And after looking for the menu we decided to go McDonald's. For some private reason Shen decided to choose Greenlane's instead of Sunrise's. Ordered a family dinner box and hang out until it was about 9+.

And then we drove around singing in the car. Amazing what breakups can do to people.

Then we went to Coffee Island for a drink and talk. (And some pokemon quizes)

And Kenny drove us to nowhere, and we decided to stay together in an apartment sometime next year. And discussed about the rules and what to buy, who is cooking and what to do in the weekends. This went on for a while.

And then we went to Free School Road to see Kenny eat some dessert. Then we went home.

And then it starts. Suddenly, there's no one there to listen to my rantings about my backached or how spicy the Spicy Chicken McDeluxe is. Or how hungry I am now. And about the plans of moving in together with my friends and the place we wanted to rent. Yup, for the first time in a while now, I have no one to talk to.

Loneliness is a bitch.

And so.

My mission for Day 2:

Fake a smile - A real man doesn't display sadness even if it hurts.

Live alone - A real man will never have the need for companionship.

Finding Myself - Day 0

I fked up.

Today is suppose to be one of the happiest day of my life for finishing 3 months contract with Hard Rock Cafe. But because of my curiosity and my weakness I screwed up my life.

I dream of today many many times 3 months ago. On the last day I would jump on the drum and take an epic picture of me posing with my drum sticks. Then hang out until 3am and go home dancing and singing in my car. And celebrate it with my love.

Instead, I just cleared up my stuffs. Said goodbye to my members and left. And I drove home with tears streaming down my cheeks. And give myself a hug and tell myself, "You've done well"

What supposedly is a perfect day is gone just by one mistake. And the crappy part is I deserve this shit. I deserve every pain that is inflicting my chest. I deserve every lost of breath whenever I breathe.

I was told to find myself.

I dunno what is that or how to achieve it. But I think I'm suppose to upgrade myself.

My mission for Day 1:

Fake a smile - A real man doesn't display sadness even if it hurts.

When It Rains

Dear God

Types of Students In My Drum Class

One thing I've learnt by being a drum teacher for almost 6 years is that there are different types of students with same characteristics.

1. The Normal

The Normal type students are the type of students that I consider as "normal" or "how students are suppose to be like". They come early to class, listens to instructions + understands them and also asks questions when there are things they don't understand. Practices at home by themselves alot.

Stress level: 0.5-2 out of 10

2. The Opposite

Basically they are the same as the The Normals. Only more attracted to errors. If The Opposite stays long enough and work hard enough, there are chances of them turning into The Normals. What separates them from the Normals is that The Opposites don't practice much (or at all) at home. Sometimes you wonder if they purposely continue making mistakes just to piss you off. Tsk!

Stress Level: 3-5 out of 10

3. The Silencer

This type is a very mysterious type. They don't talk much or ask any questions even when they understand or don't understand something. Classes tend very quiet and awkward. Heh.

Stress Level: 3-4 out of 10

4. The Skipper

Somehow The Skipper will disappear from time to time and then return to class suddenly and act as if nothing had changed. Excuses including sickness, no transport, sports day, too tired etc etc.

Stress Level: 2 out of 10

5. The Talker

Whoa this type loves to talk! They talk more than they play the drums. Stories usually is about their school life, gossip about they classmates (people that I don't know at all), and also jokes (which usually is not funny and I have to pretend to laugh). Some shares their family problems too.

Stress Level: 2-9 out of 10 (depending on the students' topics.. hehehe)

6. The Goodbye

Just so you know, people have to die someday. So some students took classes knowing that they are gonna fly to other countries somewhere in the future. And when the time for them to fly off comes, I get sad. Especially towards The Talker. Of cause that doesn't apply to all students. Sometimes I get abit too happy. Heh heh. Oh by the way, the sad parts only apply to students who tells me earlier before they left. Those who left without telling wont affect me much.

There are some though, who are mixture of different Types. Which sometimes double the stress level (Opposite+Silencer) and sometimes even neutralized the stress level (Normal+Talker).

Truth be told I never like teaching when I first started out. But now, I really wished to leave an impact (good or bad) in each and every single student that I taught before. Not just about drums, but about life.

So that I'll live on even after I leave earth.

Like in movies.

Types of Facebook Humans In My Facebook Friends

These days, there is an increasing rates of people that love to post their "success story of their day" on Facebook.

After observing such beings for many years, I figured out that, there are different types of Faceb(h)ookers who love to post their successful stories.

Type 1: The Sinceres

This type is quite rare on Facebook. They are really sincere and

would usually thank God (or their teacher or parents or a tree) for their successes.

Example: "Got a new high paying job today! Thank Potatoes!"

Type 2: The Show Offs.

There are plentiful of these in Facebook. And many of them disguised themselves

as The Sinceres. And most people are confused. Will get energy and boosts from many "likes" and comments that will kiss his/her ass. (Usually those who "likes" and comments are the same few friends or fans).

Example: "Got a new high paying job today. Oh yeah baby! Money money here I come for you! Hahaha!". (And sometimes end with "Thank seaweed too!")

Type 3: The Babies

Annoying little piece of shits that will continue to cry for more likes and comments. Usually happens on younger people or people who are young and achieve something that they think is "something successful"

Example: "Guess who got the new high paying job?!?! :DDDDDDDD Guess guess guess??! :DDD XD XD" (What a jerkhole right?)

Type 4: The Evils

Ahh. These one usually targets Type 1-4 types of people. (The Babies get the hardest hit) They usually update to counter another fella successes or just to piss people off by showing that they are as good or better than them. Often personal. However, The Evils might not hit the target that they intend to due to the fact that there too many people on Facebook. And people who are not targeted but too sensitive might feel the blow instead.

Example: "Oh wow someone got a new high paying job! but guess who got promoted and got the high paying job's higher paying job? guess guess guess who motherfart-"

So I've decided to blocked such people in my Facebook. So to those who are not getting any comments or likes from me. Its not that I don't care. Is that I cant see you anymore.

How The World Ended: The Recipe and Guide

Step 1: Earthquake! Humans die!

Step 2: Earthquake cause volcanoes to be alive again!'

Step 3: Volcanoes poops! Humans die!

Step 4: Lava heats the earth, ice on north and south pole melts!

Step 5: Floods! Humans die!

Step 6: Islands sink. Humans die!

Step 7: Survivors migrate to other countries.

Step 8: Food supplies dropped, countries overcrowded with humans. Infections! Humans die!

Step 9: Ice melts, waters rises, lands lessen. Humans die!

Step 10: Yellowstone volcano burst! The world is in darkness from the ash, and fire falls from heaven! DIEEEE!

Step 11: Temperature drops from sunless earth. Ice Age begins! Freeze to death!

Step 12: Human population 2,320,323

Step 13: Sucides! Human population 2.

Step 14: Coincidentally named Adum and Eva.

Step 15: Breeding begins. A new hope arises!

Step 16: Pregnant! Hope is good!

Step 17: But alas, two sons.

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